Chapter 26
Bone of My Bone
And Adam said, This [is] now bone of my
bones, and flesh of my flesh: she shall be
called Woman, because she was taken out
of Man.
Therefore shall a man leave his father and
his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife:
and they shall be one flesh.
Genesis 23-24
Now Morn, her rosy steps in the eastern clime
Advancing, sowed the earth with orient pearl….
It was just past noon. Malcolm had finished a light lunch, settled into the wicker rocker in the sun room, and had barely gotten settled into reading some Milton when the buzzer at the front gate went off.
Annoyed at the interruption which was enhanced by the grating character of the buzzer, Malcolm thought to himself, ”I really need to change that sound,” and ignoring the summons he re-read those two glorious velvety rich lines that began Book V of Paradise Lost. It was at this moment that he began to realize that there are now few things on earth that he enjoys more than a well crafted sentence and here was a portion of the best he has ever seen. In his ecstasy, the buzzer sounded again.
“Drats,” he said aloud as he rose to make his way into the kitchen where the nearest com link was.
“Hello,” responded the millionaire frustrated.
“Hey, Malcolm, it’s your favorite real estate salesman,” answered David Jenkins.
“Yes David, what can I help you with? And, by the way, before you answer, be advised that I’m kind of into something right now,” he added to explain his side of the current circumstances. This was followed by the muffle of someone else talking to which he heard David respond,
“Don’t worry about it. It’s OK. We’re good friends. He…..”
“Hey David, is everything alright out there?”
“Yeah, Malcolm, say I have someone with me who wants to talk with you and I assured him that you would be more than willing give him a few minutes. As it stands now, he is getting a little nervous so I would really appreciate it if you would just open this damn gate and let us in. Whad-a-yu say buddy.”
David was a very talented salesman. There are those who dabble at the trade; there are those who can do nothing else so they go into sales eeking out a meager living; and then there are those who have the gift. Sandy Cochran had the gift and so does David…..that uncanny tenacity not to ever accept a no….ever, and in such a manner as not to anger the customer. Malcolm really liked David and he respected his talent. If he had met him fifteen years ago, he would have done whatever it took to hire the man. Indeed, David was annoyingly pushy at times, but Malcolm trusted that he would not intrude unless he had a very good reason so he relented.
“Sure David come on through,” said the host with a sigh as he pressed the button to open the front gate. “I’ll meet you at the front door.”
“Thanks Malcolm. We’ll be there in a jiff. See, I told you it would be alright,” was the last thing Malcolm heard as the intercom was shut off.
Malcolm stepped onto the front deck through the large front door in time to see David and his companion step out of the car and Malcolm immediate recognized Anthony Shultz the son of his late neighbor Basil Shultz who died about six weeks ago. Upon seeing Anthony, Malcolm took it upon himself to walk down to meet the visitors. There were handshakes and warm, polite greetings all around followed by Malcolm’s invitation that his visitors follow him up to the house. He sat his guests in the office, which next to the sun room, was the most intimate room in the home. He took their beverage orders (coffee), excused himself to the kitchen, and returned. After passing out the requested fare, he fell in one end of the burgundy leather love seat.
“Anthony, it is great to see you again and it is an honor to have you in my home. I am not going to ask how you got hooked up with a character like David Jenkins here,” said the host a little suspiciously while looking somewhat askew (with a slight grin) at his salesman friend. “How is your mother doing?”
“Mom passed away two days ago, Mr. Richardson.”
There have been very few times in his life where Malcolm Richardson was caught off guard during a gathering (he prided his ability to always remain in control), but this could not be counted as one of those instances. The air was almost sucked out of his lungs. Now Malcolm really had no history with this family other than the times he had watch Basil and Shirley take their morning walks and that morning he had met Anthony at the home of octogenarian just after Basil had passed away. The start came as a result of other factors. First, to be honest and much to his shame now, he had not really thought of the Shultz’ since the morning he first met Anthony. Second, this dying thing is getting much too common an occurrence in his world and he would really wish it would stay away. Third, it seems that the standard bearers of this new journey of his are all being taken away.
“O Anthony, I am so terribly sorry. I…..”
“That’s OK, Mr. Rich….”
“Please, call me Malcolm,” urged the millionaire.
“Yes, of course, I’m, sorry Mr. Ri…I mean Malcolm,” replied the melancholy guest. “You were so kind to come and check on Mom and Dad that morning and seemed most sincere in wanting to be kept abreast of any developments, that I thought it necessary to oblige and come out here to fill you in on the latest,” explained Anthony in a most servile fashion. It was obvious even to the two other dense souls in the room that this man was struggling with loss.
“I hope she did not suffer too much Anthony,” Malcolm wished aloud somewhat awkwardly as he really did not know what to say.
“No, I think all would agree that Mom’s last days on earth were peaceful ones,” reported the son. “At first, just after Dad’s passing, Mom did fine. She would ask where Dad was and frankly we had no clue what to say except that he was away. This went on for about a month and we all got the impression that the situation was quite manageable. Megan had secured a home health nurse and we all slipped into an acceptable routine. Then she started to become more and more agitated unable to explain what it was that was causing her such angst. This frustrated her and just caused her (and us) further anxiety. The situation spiraled down for about 10 days and we were just about to pull the plug on the whole ‘taking care of Mom’ idea. Even the home health care people could not fix the situation and---by the way--they were great. Then, one evening, while we were getting Mom ready for bed…..”
Anthony stopped here pausing while he worked his way through the torrents of emotion that boiled just below the surface. Malcolm and David’s only option was to wait this awkward moment out.
Gathering up his resolve, Anthony continued, but not really speaking to Malcolm or David. It was as if he was carrying on some sort of internal dialogue, aloud.
“You know, some of my fondest memories growing up were the bed time rituals we all went through with Mom and Dad as they prepared us all for sleep. I just now realized how life had played out in reverse for us for in the end for it was I, the child, who was performing those rituals for the parent,” explained Anthony, “Oh pardon me,” he recovered, “anyway, every night was a long drawn out process getting her to bed. There was the suggestion that it was time for bed followed by her obstinacy not wanting to oblige. The same resistance was encountered in trying to bath her before bedtime. The entire scenario changed, however, when it came time to dress her, brush her hair and actually put her in the bed.” Mr. Shultz paused momentarily for what seemed to be some reflections and then continued. “This was always a comparatively calm period of 1000 questions about everything imaginable from her childhood to the present. I do not think she even knew who we were, but somehow, Mom felt that we knew her very well and, as such, attempted to reconstruct her existence through us. It was at this time of our daily routine that she became docile and cooperative. She would even break out into humming and singing childhood songs as if she had not a care in the world. The ubiquitous frown would melt into a jubilant glow and I could almost see my mother emerge from that shell of flesh.” Again he paused for apparent reflection.
“Well, two nights ago, just after we laid her in bed and were about to turn and exit, she sat upright with a strength and vigor I had thought long had vanished from this frail body. And with more life and lucidity that I have seen in Mom in years, yes asked,
“Is Basil gone? Did he die?”
Anthony paused long enough here for David to inquire, “What did you tell her?”
“Well, Ramona and I looked at one another for help in how to proceed encountering expressions of cluelessness from both our faces…..so I just told her the truth. I told her that Dad had passed away and was in a much better place waiting…….” He could not finish and stood to pace over to the pool table where he picked up the eight ball, studied it momentarily before rolling the small black orb into the far side pocket. Then he turned and walked back to his waiting audience. I told her that Dad was waiting for her to join him.”
Another pensive pause followed. Malcolm found most conversations awkward when moments of silence ensued and he knew for a fact that David could not tolerate in the least such events, but both men apparently found these short times of reflection in this instance quite natural. Mr. Shultz continued.
“When Dad was in the hospital just after his stroke, seemingly oblivious to all that was around him, Mom would lie in his bed with her feet at his head and her head at Dad’s feet. She would tightly wrap her arms around his legs, and place her cheek against is stocking feet and sing those little childish songs I mentioned earlier. This was one of the most amazing things I had ever seen and apparently it was so unique that the hospital staff would come by just to see it and….and marvel, I guess,” he added as commentary again seeming not to be speaking to Malcolm or David in this short interlude. Returning to his listeners, he continued.
“We could never really figure what this really meant or why she felt so compelled to embrace his legs and feet…..”
“Perhaps, she was returning to all those morning walks,” surmised the host. “Your Dad always seemed so attentive to her during those times as I watched them. He would just talk and talk, but she never really seemed to be understanding what he was saying. I mean, I was not ever close enough to even know what he was telling her and have no real idea if she were listening or not, but in observing from a distance it just seemed by the blank look on her face as if his narration had no audience.”
“Shows you what you know,” joked David with an ever so slight chuckle.
“She left us sometime early that morning,” said Anthony apparently oblivious to David’s quip. “I guess she fully understood my comment about Dad waiting for her and she left us not wanting him to be waiting any further,” finished the son as he made his way over to the large window and gazed up through its pane into the sky. “So they are together again, I guess, though I do not really understand much about what happens after death.” Then turning to face his host and his driver, he reported, “Ramona and I were not frequent church goers, but we maintained a connection with Family Life Church in Clear Lake. Mom and Dad were avid church goers before her condition made travel just too tedious and that congregation did a good job checking in on them and keeping us posted. We were always so thankful for that. This is the main reason we allowed them to stay alone in that big house knowing that someone was always looking in on them. Actually, they were the ones who found Dad and called the hospital. And then when you showed up that morning with apparent concern it just corroborated the fact that Someone was up there making sure these two old people were OK. This, and watching them pass from this life has prompted us to consider becoming more active in trying to understand spiritual matters……anyway, that’s neither here nor there, I just thought that you deserved an update Mr….I mean Malcolm. That’s it,” said Anthony with a shrug of his shoulder and an outstretched hand apparently preparing to leave. “I am sorry if we disturbed your mid-day activities…..
“You did nothing of the sort, Anthony,” Malcolm responded rising to grasp the extended hand, “and I am truly honored that you took it upon yourself to come over this afternoon. The invitation stands, if I can help in any way you know how to get in touch. It certainly seems that Mr. Jenkins here is at your beck and call, though I could not imagine the motivation,” added the skeptical millionaire while staring accusingly at his real estate friend with a slight grin.
“Just doing my part, buddy,” responded David, also with a smile.
Not really understanding what that was all about, Anthony excused himself and made his way toward the front door. Cordial benedictions were passed around and Malcolm’s guests exited the home. After closing the front door the owner of this one man mansion walked over and fell into one of the chairs in the lounge area of his great room.
“What was that all about,” he said aloud. “Why was I allowed to hear all that,” actually considering himself a better person as a result. There are narratives that just stand out as shining examples of just how grand and amazingly mysterious the universe is and that story was one of them. In pondering that powerful example of the nuptial relationship, he had just heard described, Malcolm rose to return to the sun room where his copy of Paradise Lost lay in waiting--making a stop in the kitchen to make another cup of hazelnut decaf. (He had one of those fancy machines that measured out the beans, ground them, and then brewed the beverage—all according to commands entered by the operator.) The sun room was quite toasty with the gas fire going compared to the slight chill that permeated the rest of the large home. (Malcolm did not have the large freestanding gas fire pit between the dining room and the great room lit.) He resumed his position in the wicker rocker and picked up Milton’s masterpiece.
In reading this 17th century work, Malcolm was beginning to understand that there was much more life and heat in the puritan understanding of male/female relations than he was led to believe by the pop pedantics. Unlike our bachelor, Malcolm was convinced that Milton would not have been the least bit surprised at the relationship that Basil and Shirley were able to enjoy. The novice literary critic was also struck by the majesty and respect that Milton extended toward the institution of matrimony. This was no surprise, of course, it was just made more abrupt by the poet’s expert use of language.
He opened the book to one of his marked pages and read,
for in thir looks Divine
The image of thir glorious Maker shon,
Truth, Wisdome, Sanctitude severe and pure,
Severe, but in true filial freedom plac't;
Whence true autoritie in men; though both
Not equal, as thir sex not equal seemd;
For contemplation hee and valour formd,
For softness shee and sweet attractive Grace,
Hee for God only, shee for God in him:
His fair large Front and Eye sublime declar'd
Absolute rule; and Hyacinthin Locks
Round from his parted forelock manly hung
Clustring, but not beneath his shoulders broad:
Shee as a vail down to the slender waste
Her unadorned golden tresses wore
Dissheveld, but in wanton ringlets wav'd
As the Vine curles her tendrils, which impli'd
Subjection, but requir'd with gentle sway,
And by her yeilded, by him best receivd,
Yeilded with coy submission, modest pride,
And sweet reluctant amorous delay.
Nor those mysterious parts were then conceald…
So passd they naked on, nor shund the sight
Of God or Angel, for they thought no ill:
The image of thir glorious Maker shon,
Truth, Wisdome, Sanctitude severe and pure,
Severe, but in true filial freedom plac't;
Whence true autoritie in men; though both
Not equal, as thir sex not equal seemd;
For contemplation hee and valour formd,
For softness shee and sweet attractive Grace,
Hee for God only, shee for God in him:
His fair large Front and Eye sublime declar'd
Absolute rule; and Hyacinthin Locks
Round from his parted forelock manly hung
Clustring, but not beneath his shoulders broad:
Shee as a vail down to the slender waste
Her unadorned golden tresses wore
Dissheveld, but in wanton ringlets wav'd
As the Vine curles her tendrils, which impli'd
Subjection, but requir'd with gentle sway,
And by her yeilded, by him best receivd,
Yeilded with coy submission, modest pride,
And sweet reluctant amorous delay.
Nor those mysterious parts were then conceald…
So passd they naked on, nor shund the sight
Of God or Angel, for they thought no ill:
Then he thumbed to another mark where Adam and Eve have a tender discussion concerning the forbidden tree:
Sole partner and sole part of all these joyes,
Dearer thy self then all; needs must the Power
That made us, and for us this ample World
Be infinitly good, and of his good
As liberal and free as infinite,
That rais'd us from the dust and plac't us here
In all this happiness, who at his hand
Have nothing merited, nor can performe
Aught whereof hee hath need, hee who requires
From us no other service then to keep
This one, this easie charge, of all the Trees
In Paradise that beare delicious fruit
So various, not to taste that onely Tree
Of knowledge, planted by the Tree of Life,
So neer grows Death to Life, what ere Death is,
Som dreadful thing no doubt; for well thou knowst
God hath pronounc't it death to taste that Tree,
The only sign of our obedience left
Among so many signes of power and rule
Conferrd upon us, and Dominion giv'n
Over all other Creatures that possesse
Earth, Aire, and Sea. Then let us not think hard
One easie prohibition, who enjoy
Free leave so large to all things else, and choice
Unlimited of manifold delights:
But let us ever praise him, and extoll
His bountie, following our delightful task
To prune these growing Plants, & tend these Flours,
Which were it toilsom, yet with thee were sweet.
To whom thus Eve repli'd. O thou for whom
And from whom I was formd flesh of thy flesh,
And without whom am to no end, my Guide
And Head, what thou hast said is just and right.
For wee to him indeed all praises owe,
And daily thanks, I chiefly who enjoy
So farr the happier Lot, enjoying thee
Preeminent by so much odds, while thou
Like consort to thy self canst no where find.
That day I oft remember, when from sleep
I first awak't, and found my self repos'd
Under a shade on flours, much wondring where
And what I was, whence thither brought, and how.
Not distant far from thence a murmuring sound
Of waters issu'd from a Cave and spread
Into a liquid Plain, then stood unmov'd
Pure as th' expanse of Heav'n; I thither went
With unexperienc't thought, and laid me downe
On the green bank, to look into the cleer
Smooth Lake, that to me seemd another Skie.
As I bent down to look, just opposite,
A Shape within the watry gleam appeerd
Bending to look on me, I started back,
It started back, but pleasd I soon returnd,
Pleas'd it returnd as soon with answering looks
Of sympathie and love, there I had fixt
Mine eyes till now, and pin'd with vain desire,
Had not a voice thus warnd me, What thou seest,
What there thou seest fair Creature is thy self,
With thee it came and goes: but follow me,
And I will bring thee where no shadow staies
Thy coming, and thy soft imbraces, hee
Whose image thou art, him thou shall enjoy
Inseparablie thine, to him shalt beare
Multitudes like thy self, and thence be call'd
Mother of human Race: what could I doe,
But follow strait, invisibly thus led?
Till I espi'd thee, fair indeed and tall,
Under a Platan, yet methought less faire,
Less winning soft, less amiablie milde,
Then that smooth watry image; back I turnd,
Thou following cryd'st aloud, Return fair EVE,
Whom fli'st thou? whom thou fli'st, of him thou art,
His flesh, his bone; to give thee being I lent
Out of my side to thee, neerest my heart
Substantial Life, to have thee by my side
Henceforth an individual solace dear;
Part of my Soul I seek thee, and thee claim
My other half: with that thy gentle hand
Seisd mine, I yeilded, and from that time see
How beauty is excelld by manly grace
And wisdom, which alone is truly fair.
Dearer thy self then all; needs must the Power
That made us, and for us this ample World
Be infinitly good, and of his good
As liberal and free as infinite,
That rais'd us from the dust and plac't us here
In all this happiness, who at his hand
Have nothing merited, nor can performe
Aught whereof hee hath need, hee who requires
From us no other service then to keep
This one, this easie charge, of all the Trees
In Paradise that beare delicious fruit
So various, not to taste that onely Tree
Of knowledge, planted by the Tree of Life,
So neer grows Death to Life, what ere Death is,
Som dreadful thing no doubt; for well thou knowst
God hath pronounc't it death to taste that Tree,
The only sign of our obedience left
Among so many signes of power and rule
Conferrd upon us, and Dominion giv'n
Over all other Creatures that possesse
Earth, Aire, and Sea. Then let us not think hard
One easie prohibition, who enjoy
Free leave so large to all things else, and choice
Unlimited of manifold delights:
But let us ever praise him, and extoll
His bountie, following our delightful task
To prune these growing Plants, & tend these Flours,
Which were it toilsom, yet with thee were sweet.
To whom thus Eve repli'd. O thou for whom
And from whom I was formd flesh of thy flesh,
And without whom am to no end, my Guide
And Head, what thou hast said is just and right.
For wee to him indeed all praises owe,
And daily thanks, I chiefly who enjoy
So farr the happier Lot, enjoying thee
Preeminent by so much odds, while thou
Like consort to thy self canst no where find.
That day I oft remember, when from sleep
I first awak't, and found my self repos'd
Under a shade on flours, much wondring where
And what I was, whence thither brought, and how.
Not distant far from thence a murmuring sound
Of waters issu'd from a Cave and spread
Into a liquid Plain, then stood unmov'd
Pure as th' expanse of Heav'n; I thither went
With unexperienc't thought, and laid me downe
On the green bank, to look into the cleer
Smooth Lake, that to me seemd another Skie.
As I bent down to look, just opposite,
A Shape within the watry gleam appeerd
Bending to look on me, I started back,
It started back, but pleasd I soon returnd,
Pleas'd it returnd as soon with answering looks
Of sympathie and love, there I had fixt
Mine eyes till now, and pin'd with vain desire,
Had not a voice thus warnd me, What thou seest,
What there thou seest fair Creature is thy self,
With thee it came and goes: but follow me,
And I will bring thee where no shadow staies
Thy coming, and thy soft imbraces, hee
Whose image thou art, him thou shall enjoy
Inseparablie thine, to him shalt beare
Multitudes like thy self, and thence be call'd
Mother of human Race: what could I doe,
But follow strait, invisibly thus led?
Till I espi'd thee, fair indeed and tall,
Under a Platan, yet methought less faire,
Less winning soft, less amiablie milde,
Then that smooth watry image; back I turnd,
Thou following cryd'st aloud, Return fair EVE,
Whom fli'st thou? whom thou fli'st, of him thou art,
His flesh, his bone; to give thee being I lent
Out of my side to thee, neerest my heart
Substantial Life, to have thee by my side
Henceforth an individual solace dear;
Part of my Soul I seek thee, and thee claim
My other half: with that thy gentle hand
Seisd mine, I yeilded, and from that time see
How beauty is excelld by manly grace
And wisdom, which alone is truly fair.
Extatic over this language of intimate connection, the reader moved to the next marked page where Milton apparently records what could only be described as erotic, though one must realize that our approach is taken post fall and Milton is describing the intimacy and beauty of a pre-fall relationship and even that with in the confines of man and wife. Consequently, the scene comes across as almost forbidden and Malcolm feels as if he is intruding . None-the-less he proceeds already aware of the libidinous content reading with relish as his mind fabricates images of he and his first love—the ravising Sybil:
So spake our general Mother, and with eyes
Of conjugal attraction unreprov'd,
And meek surrender, half imbracing leand
On our first Father, half her swelling Breast
Naked met his under the flowing Gold
Of her loose tresses hid: he in delight
Both of her Beauty and submissive Charms
Smil'd with superior Love, as JUPITER
On JUNO smiles, when he impregns the Clouds
That shed MAY Flowers; and press'd her Matron lip
With kisses pure….
Of conjugal attraction unreprov'd,
And meek surrender, half imbracing leand
On our first Father, half her swelling Breast
Naked met his under the flowing Gold
Of her loose tresses hid: he in delight
Both of her Beauty and submissive Charms
Smil'd with superior Love, as JUPITER
On JUNO smiles, when he impregns the Clouds
That shed MAY Flowers; and press'd her Matron lip
With kisses pure….
To whom thus EVE with perfet beauty adornd.
My Author and Disposer, what thou bidst
Unargu'd I obey; so God ordains,
God is thy Law, thou mine: to know no more
Is womans happiest knowledge and her praise.
With thee conversing I forget all time,
All seasons and thir change, all please alike.
Sweet is the breath of morn, her rising sweet,
With charm of earliest Birds; pleasant the Sun
When first on this delightful Land he spreads
His orient Beams, on herb, tree, fruit, and flour,
Glistring with dew; fragrant the fertil earth
After soft showers; and sweet the coming on
Of grateful Eevning milde, then silent Night
With this her solemn Bird and this fair Moon,
And these the Gemms of Heav'n, her starrie train:
But neither breath of Morn when she ascends
With charm of earliest Birds, nor rising Sun
On this delightful land, nor herb, fruit, floure,
Glistring with dew, nor fragrance after showers,
Nor grateful Evening mild, nor silent Night
With this her solemn Bird, nor walk by Moon,
Or glittering Starr-light without thee is sweet.
My Author and Disposer, what thou bidst
Unargu'd I obey; so God ordains,
God is thy Law, thou mine: to know no more
Is womans happiest knowledge and her praise.
With thee conversing I forget all time,
All seasons and thir change, all please alike.
Sweet is the breath of morn, her rising sweet,
With charm of earliest Birds; pleasant the Sun
When first on this delightful Land he spreads
His orient Beams, on herb, tree, fruit, and flour,
Glistring with dew; fragrant the fertil earth
After soft showers; and sweet the coming on
Of grateful Eevning milde, then silent Night
With this her solemn Bird and this fair Moon,
And these the Gemms of Heav'n, her starrie train:
But neither breath of Morn when she ascends
With charm of earliest Birds, nor rising Sun
On this delightful land, nor herb, fruit, floure,
Glistring with dew, nor fragrance after showers,
Nor grateful Evening mild, nor silent Night
With this her solemn Bird, nor walk by Moon,
Or glittering Starr-light without thee is sweet.
So, there, sitting all alone in the middle of the day in his large house empty of everything but stuff, the pensive bachelor was forced to contemplate marriage and the awful, immensely consequential mistakes he had made in his approach to this timeless institution. And here in this quiet moment of reflection, Malcolm Richardson asked God for a second…..no, he remembered in horror, a forth chance at love.
